This intimate kaleidoscopic journal takes the reader through the cycles of faith and doubt that typify the author's spiritual journey from his childhood and youth in Puerto Rico to his retirement years in the United States. Lyrical prose, poetry, and story combine to express the vagaries of a spirituality that, at one and the same time, is unable to gloss over the difficult, often heartbreaking questions of faith, and yet cannot give up on the longing for God.