Ray Lodovico: his isn't a fitness book. Even though I lost 110 pounds.

It's not a love story. Even though I was married almost 27 years.

And it's not some fake-ass motivational playbook. I'm not here to sell you a dream or sugarcoat the shit I went through.

This is survival. Truth. Evolution.

I started living this story at age two. I didn't know it then — but that's when the damage started. Every chapter was earned. Through silence. Through rejection. Through nights where I had no one to talk to but God.

At some point writing this book, I realized I probably had PTSD. I'd never called it that. I just thought I was angry. Defensive. Guarded. But it makes sense now.

I was kept small. Treated like a child.

And here's the truth — I don't even know how "good" this book is. To me? It's a bestseller. But I've never read a book in my life. That's no joke. I was in a special reading class in elementary school. My friend Louie and I were in that class for years.

I made it through school without ever reading a book.

And here I am — publishing one.

It's not to be cool. It's not to brag. It's survival. I needed to get my truth down.

And here's the irony — all the people who used to tell me, "You gotta do what you gotta do"... well — this is what I gotta do. Maybe it's my way out.

It all started with a weight loss transformation. I thought losing 110 pounds was going to fix everything.

I'm not sure it did. But I kept going. I kept writing. I kept fighting.

And now I wrote this book... while living in my car.

In these pages, I'm going to talk about:
• family
• marriage
• addiction
• suicidal thoughts
• trauma
• the nights I slept in my car
• loneliness
• the fight to believe in myself
• and what it REALLY takes to rebuild when nobody is coming to save you.

If that sounds uncomfortable — good. Life has been uncomfortable.

I'm doing what I gotta do. And this is my truth.

#InspiredToBeBetter Ray Lodovico: A raw, unfiltered memoir of survival, weight loss, trauma, addiction, and rebuilding life from nothing. Written while living in a car. This is not a feel-good playbook. It's the truth. If you've ever been counted out — this is your story.