Courtney Farrell's first affair was typical of her headlong plunge into the grownup world. She had no time for the tentative, groping years of adolescence. She had to know everything fast. Her first drink had to be a very dry martini, and her first kiss the beginning of a full-blown love affair. But Courtney quickly found herself alone in the tough, adult world—with only the pitiful armor of a little girl playing dress-up.