The pain from years ago up until this very publication fills this published journal. A woman that had to hide so much, is imploding on the inside, so much pain, anger, fear, heartache and she is now penning her truth. Her truth must be told. The love she has for her husband, children and the rest of her family cannot be hidden. She has dealt with many years of pain from losing her firstborn, her daughter a pain that she feels will never go away and then....she loses her last born, her son.