Releasing My Trauma: The Root of Self-Sabotage is a self-help memoir on how the past impact our life, mental, physical, emotional, nutritional, and spiritual health. That leads to self-sabotaging behaviors in relationships, career, finances, self-love, and self-wellbeing. Years of unresolved hurt, abandonment, grief, anger, depression, fears, and negative thoughts of a lost six-year-old little girl who had not been released. An adult trying to navigate life as a hurt, broken, and angry six-year-old child not knowing how to let go of the past that was destroying her life, relationships, health, mental, finances, and self. The lack of self-love and tried to navigate through life as if everything was fine. As a result, I neglected my needs, health, happiness, peace, joy, and wellness. I abandoned myself. An unresolved past filled with grief, anger, molestation, familial abandonment and loved ones moving away all played a major role in shaping my behavior. On the outside, I was an adult. On the inside however, lived a wounded little girl who worked hard to protect herself from hurt, disappointment, and a broken heart. My commitment to myself was to never be hurt again... Even if it meant being alone.Moving forward is never easy, but it is a very necessary component in healing, growing, and finding yourself through all the garbage. I have decided to live in the now, not the past or the future. I thought I was fully invested in my relationships with myself and my exes, but I know now that I had no clue how to be. I may have been knocked down, but I will never stop fighting through all the obstacles and challenges.