While under general anesthesia for gender reassignment surgery, the author uncovers layers of repressed memories of early childhood abandonment, chronic sexual abuse, and the embroiled internal battle between homosexuality, transgenderism, and her Christian faith. She shows how trauma, and conflict in identity, contributed to extreme body modifications, sex work depression and an attempted suicide. But the the God that chooses, the " foolish things of the world to confound the wise", and a new position at an unassuming HIV Community Based-Organization in Fredericksburg, Virginia, changed the trajectory of her life forever. Through helping others find their voice, she, herself, learned how to fly.