Best known as an actor and one of the BBC's Eggheads, few people would guess from his cultured exterior at the horrific early years of abuse CJ de Mooi endured.As a teenager, CJ fled from his childhood home to escape prolonged hatred and violence, and consequently slept rough for three years. He sank to - and almost didn't survive - far worse depths than this before a bizarre stroke of luck came from a very surprising place.CJ's jaw-dropping life story relates his journey in graphic detail and astounding honesty. He's not afraid to shine the spotlight on his darkest hours, some of which are truly shocking. However, through it all he held onto his dream of a life on the stage and his desperate belief that he deserved better.Now a successful actor, CJ has shared his anger, torment and ultimate joy in this book, a most unexpected autobiography.