Charlotte grew up in the church. She accepted Christ as a teenager. She knew and believed the gospel. Her life wasn't perfect, but the story of her journey made sense. She knew who she was.

And then during her freshman year of college, something bizarre and completely unforeseen happened. A switch flipped in her head. And somehow, her brain stopped working right.

She spent the following years wrestling not just with mental illness, but also with the implications of what being bipolar meant for her as a Christian. Her diagnosis felt like a chasm between herself and the church, and sometimes between herself and God. How could someone bipolar, who felt like such a mess in so many ways, also be a Christian?

This is the story of one young Christian's experience learning to live with mental illness, and how God used even the darkest parts of her life to grow her in Christ and teach her more about the nature of his love and mercy.