I loved a boy.

Gavin Lodge. 

He was sweet, gentle, kind and he made me feel alive. 

Letting him go was the hardest thing I ever had to do in my life. 

A hundred times I wished I had done things differently.

A thousand times I wished I had gone with him. 

A million times I wished he had chosen me.

I didn't. Neither did he. 

Now he's back. 

No longer a boy, but a man. 

I can't love him again. 

It almost destroyed me once and I won't let that happen again. 

That should be the end of it. 

And maybe it would have been.

If someone wasn't trying to kill me…