This is the story of Sipho and what happened in four days trying to kill himself before he turned 41. It includes poems written in hospital and friends stories I met in hospital. In the US they experience 11,000 self-inflicted deaths per year and the UK: 7,000. Anxiety disorders affect more than 17 million Americans, with 19 million suffering from depressive illnesses. Chronic pain affects more that 40 million Americans. As a result of these disorders billions of dollars each year are lost.