This book is about me and my experiences through life at the hands of the social services, which all stemmed from when I was eighteen to nineteen after university. Life was going swimming after university until I hit the exam stage, where I had problemsstress, they called itand I was diagnosed as a bipolar manic-depressive. Treatment was long, and nothing seemed to work. Then they tried lithium carbonate, after which things settled down. I got a job in the city, and happiness was in the horizon: making money, getting married to girl to behold for. The book gives an insight into highs and lows of being merry, without-care-in-the-world attitude to life in world and the way on down breakup my marriage leading to more spiritual path a success for a meaningful way of life without sex.