When I was diagnosed with cancer, I entered a new world. One I knew well as a doctor, but which was foreign and strange as a patient. I was the one receiving the tight, sympathetic smiles, the one being told "this won't hurt at all."I was also the one in terror, at the mercy of some doctor somewhere who would look at my cancer and tell me if I would live or die. Living there, in the shadow of death, I realized how close we all are to that valley. We pretend, but we'll all walk that valley someday.It would have been easier to walk the valley as my former self, as an atheist. But I'd become a believer after seeing too many coincidences in my life to disregard the reality of some kind of higher power.As a believer, I wanted answers, and I wanted to express my anger at the universe for putting me through this, my anger at God. I've come to peace, finding some of the answers I sought. This book is my effort to help others find answers that will help them.