What do you do when the life you had planned is snatched away before it can begin? Do you give in, and let yourself succumb to the misery that tries to drown you, or do you try swimming to that surface that forever seems out of reach? The world may have ended, mine just took a little longer to catch up. I've lost people along the way, some I loved; others I didn't, but the one I've truly lost is myself. How then, can I find the will to go on when all I see is a stranger in the mirror? How do I force myself to breathe when it's so much easier to just wait for something to come and mercifully finish me off? The answer: I'll tell you when I figure it out.****Warning: this novel contains graphic violence, abuse, strong language, and sexual content (both consensual and rape). Please express caution before purchasing if you have any triggers.