Travis shares why he has to be punished through masturbating with razor blades as a punishment for not experiencing puberty and sexuality like his neurotypical peers. Travis explains how he does not understand how to be more than one person at a time. He cannot fathom how he could be someone's friend and then their boyfriend. Travis explains emotional puberty in this amazing book about autism. In this book you will learn the reason behind Travis punishing himself for not having sex or experiencing sexuality. You will see how confused Travis is in social relationships because he does not understand how to be two completely different people all in one interaction with the same person. You will learn how Travis was kicked in his private parts and punished for not having sex in high school and college. Travis will share the emotional damage that puberty and sexuality has caused him in hopes of helping the reader prevent the same from happening to others with autism. Follow along as Travis tries to avoid punishment, figure out who he is supposed to be, and understand his own sexuality and meaning in life.