Going "all in" with everything you have is hard for some folks to understand. For me, it's just another day. When your raised a certain way, totally dysfunctional, what seams insane to some is just normal to you. Once again, perspective. It's a personal decision how to run your life. Life does not come with directions, it comes with mental programming. Your mind is programmed from birth with what you see and hear from your parents and then in school by your teachers. By the time your off to the real world you're a product of what your programmed to be. Sometimes, if you're lucky, you can have a gift come along in the shape of a book or person or near death experience. It can deprogram you mid-life and allow you to rethink yourself again. Hopefully for the better. Living life "all in" can come with some amazing rewards. It can take you to places you never dreamed of. From the outsider looking in it looks like you have the biggest balls in the world, when to you it was just a natural reaction. The downside to living "all in" is it can leave you flat ass broke without a single possession to call your own, living in a shack in the hills of North Carolina.