Years of disappointment, infertility, and miscarriage behind them, John and Suzanne Henkels finally

found bliss. A family began when they joyfully adopted Zach from Russia and was completed when

Suzanne gave birth to twins, Jacob and Samuel, two years later.

That ecstasy was shattered when Sammy was given just a 50 percent chance of surviving a rare

and brutal disease. The months of treatment - chemotherapy, bone marrow transplant, and devastating

complications - put unimaginable pressure on the family. As Sammy struggled for survival, John and

Suzanne were frequently separated from their sons, from their home - and from each other.

With rare candor, John writes of his doubts, fears, and anger - and his search for lost faith.

Marriages have been destroyed by far less than what this couple endured. But he and Suzanne learned

the meaning of extravagant love and grace - from their family, from the medical professionals, from

the children fighting for life, and most importantly, from Sammy - which ultimately opened the

doorway to a life of joy.