WeÍre similar, he and I, for the first time _ all the symptoms of grief with none of the emotion. ItÍs not that it doesnÍt hurt; I just havenÍt worked out how to mourn someone I hated.When MattÍs half-brother Alex dies, his father refuses to hold onto the memory of his favourite sonÍs death. It was hard enough the first time, but breaking his dadÍs heart on a weekly basis is more than Matt can bear. Peter, MattÍs father, is terrified his dementia will let slip the secrets heÍs kept for thirty-five years. Unable to distinguish between memory and delusion, he pursues one question through the maze of his mind: WhereÍs Alex?Faced with the imminent loss of his father, Matt is running out of time to discover the truth about his family. Tortured by his failing memory, Peter realises that itÍs not just the dementia threatening to open his box of secrets, but his conscience, too.