This is a semi-autobiographical novel based on a collage of experiences by a friend and myself during our early years as we explored our sexuality. Names and places have obviously been disguised to protect the privacy of those involved yet the events described are, as best we can recall, an accurate representation of our development. The two of us were estranged from the GLBT world which was underground at the time and lived in environments where the expression of one's innermost feelings was unacceptable. It was also world of discipline, sanctioned by the state, which deeply affected our own attitudes toward subservience and pain.

The novel covers a relatively short period into lives which are now well beyond the age of thirty. The novel is graphic in detail and intended obviously for a mature and mentally stable reader. Yet it's graphic qualities are necessary to put in context our mental development and our transition from the 'norm' to a rich and rewarding, if somewhat unusual, lifestyle.