My book chronicles detailed perils with alcoholism, hope for recovery and what life is like 12 years after my last drink. From childhood to middle age, my story cites personal destruction, debauchery, suicidal obsession and despair. On October 31, 2003, I found a way out from the gripping disease and what a glorious journey sobriety has been. The purpose of this book is to reach out to the suffering alcoholics, who can relate to my life so that they might find hope and recovery before it is too late, as well as those family members of alcoholics who fear there is no hope for themselves and their loved one.