"There are all kinds of ways for a relationship to be tested, even broken, irrevocably; it's the endings that we're unprepared for. My life has become a roller coaster ride mixed with equal amounts of pure joy and exposed fear; and, sometimes, this unfathomable incredulity. This arrives in spurts, like adrenalin or injected heroin; well, how I imagine injected heroin would feel. That's when I consider that change—change, its inevitability—is coming. And, I can't stop it."This is how the rollercoaster ride of Ellen Kay "Ellie" Bradford's story begins. Ellie—a successful editor, a doting mother, and a loving wife—discovers her perfect world has been rocked by her best friend Carrie, who is having an affair with her husband Robert. Since college, it's been the two couples: Robert and Ellie; and, Michael and Carrie. Ellie's world unravels even further when she learns she has breast cancer from Michael, the brilliant surgeon determined to save her. With an unexpected pregnancy further complicating Ellie's cancer treatment, Michael and Ellie marry, intent on building a perfect life together with their blended families. Soon, their intense bond is tested like never before. Not To Us is an insightful look into one woman's personal journey in discovering the only way to keep her one and only wish is to trust the ones that count, beginning with herself.