I can't believe how different things are now; how complicated my life has become in such a short amount of time.It was never supposed to be like this.He's off limits.He's always been off limits.I keep telling myself that; that being here with him is not supposed to feel this good.God, he's not supposed to feel this good.I wonder what my life would have been like now if I had gone to the clinic on a different day, or if I had just insisted on going with the physician I was initially referred to.Never in my life would I have thought that in the events that followed the beginning of a regular school week, a random checkup would end up spawning a highly angst-filled, incredibly confusing, and quickly-unfolding mess.***