I was totally used to calling the shots. Women kind of fell at my feet – not the other way around. I didn't like to brag, but all of us were really good-looking and none of us had any issues with attracting the opposite sex (Even Tom who didn't actually want them since he was married to a guy…) and I could, if I chose, have a different girl on my arm – every night of the week. And I did date girls – quite a lot. I didn't fall in love with any of them though. If I'm honest, the thought of actually being in a relationship with any of them was quite horrifying. I wasn't into that sort of nonsense. Relationships were for other people – grown ups – not me… I wasn't like everyone else. I didn't think I was really capable of it. Toby was the lovable one – I wasn't. I'd felt this way since… well, since forever really – but definitely since Mum died. Mum had loved me unconditionally. She saw past all the flaws in all of her children – even me.