For the man he loves, he will fight—body, mind, and soul.

Fourteen years ago, on a sun-drenched summer day on the banks of Craving's Creek, Ryde swore to his best friend, Alistair, he'd never be alone in the world. Though Alistair was destined for the priesthood, there was something beyond holy about the first kiss they shared.

But a fun camping trip went horribly wrong when Alistair was involved in a horrific incident.

Now, at age thirty-one, Ryde's life is a mess of alcohol and the painful imprint of his last look into Alistair's desperate eyes. Since the evil they encountered on that shore, his first love has been lost to him—until he learns a friend's wedding is to be officiated by a priest named Father Alistair Genet.

Amid the rush of emotions, one thought crystallizes: Ryde's love for Alistair not only has never died, it's stronger than ever. Stronger than God. But it may be no match for the church...and the repressed memories that are slowly tearing Alistair's mind apart.

Warning: Contains a drunken confessional, a self-destructive clergyman, and a fight to the spiritual death for love.