These are my words, articles and journaling that I have written over the last 4 years and 4 months since his death, trying to learn to cope with my loss, my world falling apart, loss of home, loss of a sense of a belonging and the hopeless feelings I had as if there was a hole in my stomach that would never go away. A part of me also died that morning.Hopefully my words can give help and comfort to someone else who is going through the same pain, heartbreak and loss.Monna Ellithorpe, December 2012