A mother's love doesn't end with loss. It deepens, it fights, it remembers.

When Casey Rosquete placed her infant son Ryker in the care of a licensed home daycare, she never imagined that just three months into his life, she'd be facing every parent's worst nightmare.

What began as journal entries scrawled through sleepless nights evolved into Holding Ryker-a searing memoir that gives voice to the raw, often hidden reality of child loss. Casey lays bare the unimaginable heartbreak of losing her son-and the relentless journey of surviving what is almost un-survivable.

Holding Ryker is not only a reflection of her loss, it is a survival guide for other families navigating life after loss. From the dark depths of early grief to the complicated hope of pregnancy after loss, Holding Ryker walks readers through parenting with one child missing, while still showing up for the living.