ABOUT THE BOOK - This book was written by Soul Trade #3 supporting character, Dr. Jane Caldwell long before we meet her in this series, before she even started work at the university. This piece is important to share because Madam hid a copy of this text in her survival pack that she took with her into the Bermuda Triangle, where it gets into the hands of Anne Bonny. What happens next is the story for Soul Trade book #4.

INTRODUCTION by Dr. Jane Caldwell

I do not want to talk about the whale or what happened to the whale.

I do not want to talk about his life or the way it impacted me.

The whale was nothing and the whale was everything -a cold reality the way that truly important things often are.

I understand now how it feels to be truly helpless.

I have to move forward, because that is the only choice that there is.

I have to take an action, but for the first time in my life I have no idea what to do.

I have given myself permission to be still- to sit here on this island, to find a safe place to rest and think.

And I have given myself permission to write.

I have given myself permission to be quiet.

I am gifting myself these days of nothing.

Writing in this journal is the only action I am capable of right now.

This will be a way to explore these surroundings and move forward in a way honors these memories.

My goal is to find a way to give myself permission to let go, forgive myself for who I was, and learn who I want to be.