Naively, I thought this story was a gift I had given to someone when in reality, it was more of a selfish need to be heard and a need to make sense of everything I had been going through. The gift that I wanted to give had always been there.

In the recent month, especially leading up to the last couple of days, I had gone through much suffering, mostly mental and physical, but even more so emotional. There were times where I wanted to die. But at the same time, I haven't felt more driven and filled with meaning than ever before. The skies are bluer and trees greener, the air is cleaner and the world is brighter. For these reasons, a gift that I initially, selfishly hid from everyone for a few months shall now be open for all to read so that I may move on from all the mistakes and all the accomplishments that have been made here.