Some doctors say that after suffering brain trauma you become a new person. But they also warn you of the many bad side effects that could have. Now in many ways I feel like a new person. But not a new person in the negative sense of lacking inhibition and showing poor social judgment. I actually feel like a better person. Not that I was so bad before. Because if I had been, so many nice people wouldn't have liked me or cared about me. And one special one wouldn't have fallen in love with me and agreed to marry me and share my life.

I'm a new person in the way I deal with other people. I think I'm friendlier and more patient with others. But my attitude toward life is very ambivalent. There are days when I wish I weren't so afraid of killing myself and when I seriously doubt the wisdom of God in letting me live after my accident. I'm also, strange as it may sound, more optimistic about life. I look forward more to things happening than I did before. I feel I still have things to live for.