From a front row seat, I saw every regular season loss unfold. The mixed pre-season record proved to have no positive bearing; in fact, it might have fed a positivity which was delusional. The unique writing style for the games of both this year and the preceding season reflects the fact that the initial audience was a single individual on the team and there was no desire to otherwise publicize the writer's written thoughts. That person has given permission to publish this book. In all likelihood, she had previously shared some of the write-ups with certain teammates and the coach had become aware of my thoughts.