These are my journal entries of 1994. I had a hard time getting settled here in the city. My biggest struggle was finding housing, because I couldn't afford anything. The cost of living in New York City is absolutely astronomical! That was my first lesson of life inside the Big Apple. Many were the hard knocks and life lessons that were learned during this period. It was a pretty rough and tumble time in my life, and I definitely would not want to repeat or relive it. Some things, such as these, are best left in the past. For all the struggles, hardships, and difficulties that I was having, I did not think that I would last but a year there. Alas, I lived inside N.Y.C. for 15 years.